Once upon a time or should I say over a month ago, I was diagnosed with Infective Endocarditis and was told I had to go through open heart surgery or else, I could – would die. My only hope of surviving life was having a mechanical valve replace my already damaged aortic valve and so I did. Just when we all thought that the bacteria Streptococcus Mitis has left my system, my doctor came up to me five days after my first heart surgery saying that my other valve is now damaged too and he needed to perform another surgery to replace this time, my mitral valve. When the choice you have is living or dying, I guess the answer is obvious.
Being in the hospital for so long, I couldn’t help but think about my blog. I’ve always said I wanted to retire at 30 but going through this physical and emotional turmoil, I thought, why not make an early retirement? I thought of revamping my blog into a 365 Project and make it more substantial than simply posting narcissistic photos of myself and my outfits. Sure, I wouldn’t get front row runway seats, exclusive invites to events, freebies from sponsors and I would be the most unimportant person in a fashion show but when you go through something life-threatening, I guess, none of those things matter anymore.
As I was getting better and flipping through fashion magazines, I couldn’t deny the fact that I can never get away from this industry – I grew up in this world, The Girl with the Messy Hair is part of who I am and I cannot give it up just yet.
As I hung up my hospital gown after a month-long stint in the hospital, I realized ONCE A FASHION BLOGGER, ALWAYS A FASHION BLOGGER. Doesn’t matter if now I have this huge scar on my chest or it would take me a while to get into my fashionable outfits again...I will get there – slowly. After all, I am just starting my second chance in life.
Thank you for all your well wishes and for patiently waiting for a my comeback outfit post...which rest assured would happen very soon! Stay tuned for the changes coming to my blog -- the new layout is just the beginning~